last love

it’s not so busy @ work so i found some time to browse through my old emails - where i found old letters.

suddenly, i have come to realize that it doesnt really matter whether you are someone’s first or tenth love, what’s important is that you two make it work to last a lifetime. im not proud to say that i have fallen in and out of love five times before i met the guy i am going to marry. the memories were, mind you, too awful to imagine. but just today, i have realized that i shouldn’t at all regret falling in love with these ‘wrong’ people, because maybe it was god’s way of handpicking the right person to love me. or to make me realize why it never worked out with someone else. and because of that, i am thankful.

i could have been granted with a fiancee visa for canada, or australia and just pretend that i was in love with someone who could buy me anything i want. i could have just stayed in the long relationship that i had eventhough it has become sickening, i could have just let my parents fix a chinese marriage, i could have just stopped myself from falling in love after the last time i got hurt,  but as you know, true love rules,all the time, and it always finds its way.

i feel that i have found mine. i couldn’t  thank god enough for that.